This blog was born in 2006 during a time I was ill with some unknown digestive condition that caused me to be nauseous 24/7, eventually and tentatively diagnosed as gastroparesis. Unable to eat solid foods, I lost weight, was no longer able to work, and basically dropped out of the world at large. For six months I traveled to doctors in Seattle for multiple tests and procedures. After being told I might need to be on a feeding tube, I went home. For two years I was home in the woods except when going to see a variety of non-allopathic health care people and healers. My husband attained sainthood during this time and life changed dramatically for me, having always worked full time in professions that involved helping others. Now I needed to help myself.
Having written articles occasionally throughout my adult life, several months before getting sick I had begun to write more often and had several articles published. I’d hoped to continue writing more. While so ill, I looked for a format to continue writing and share photos of the natural world around me. Almost by accident I clicked a button on my Apple computer one day and found myself creating a web site. Mostly for friends and mom (who was understandably worried about me), I wanted people to know I was some how surviving. Writing, photography, and Mother Nature were all part of my healing, as were the colorful “color doodles” I began to draw. (A turning point in my recovery was also reading the book “The Divide Mind” by Dr John Sarno).
In sharing this story over the years, I’ve met several very successful (in that they actually make money at it!) artists who told me they began their creative life as part of healing from a health crisis. I believe creativity is a critical aspect of healing for everyone. Everyone has a creative muse in them, perhaps for some of us other aspects of life have to slip away before we see our muse.
After Apple discontinued their server service, I lost my original web site, switched to Google’s Blog Spot, then, in 2011, settled here on Word Press. Though my initial intention was to share, through photos, essays and stories, the beauty and fascination of Nature, over the years, especially through the years of caring for my Mom as she declined with Alzheimer’s, the writing expanded into posts about people and life. No specific direction, just whatever moved me to write words and share ideas.
Again I found creative writing to be a balm for the emotional roller coaster and physically exhausting demands of watching my mom slip further into dementia. Too often I felt I was in quick sand, anticipating, but never knowing, when the next crisis would occur, while at the same time staying present with mom and her care needs. It was a time when I lost touch with many aspects of my life, but by occasionally writing I found my grounding. (a poignant piece from this period of time is The Girl In The Turquoise Swimsuit)
I now face a reoccurrence of cancer, my fourth go around with the big “C”, and I find myself once again withdrawing from the surrounding world. This time that world includes the Internet, especially social media (Facebook and Instagram). Facebook has been a way to stay in touch with those far away, some of whom do not have access to email but occasionally can get on facebook, so I may go back, and Instagram has been a fun way to share with other nature lovers and creative types photos and creative projects (such as the Flora Mandalas I began to make after mom died and I had the last cancer episode)
Not certain of the role this blog now plays in my life, or in the life of readers, I wonder if I have anything more to share of value to others. Readership has grown, many people who read the posts I do not know personally (but deeply appreciate they’re taking the time to read!) For this reason I will not be writing about what is in store for me in the immediate future. If some where down the time line of my life some great inspiration, funny story, or useful tidbit occurs to me that might help, inspire or amuse others I’ll give it a go. I suspect I won’t be able to stop myself! 🙂
Think of me gently in your prayers, thoughts or visualizations and enjoy my previous posts, there are 174 of them, plus 30 pages (see menu above for pages) to explore! And thank you for wandering with me throughout these years on Huckleberry Wanderings!
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